Am I excited to move to Peru?
Yes. More than you will ever know.
Am I excited to leave the life I have in Canada?
Not at all. I’m terrified.
I have such mixed emotions. I want to be on mission & I know that that is what God wants me to do as well but, when I think about leaving all my friends, my family, my lifestyle, my school, even silly things like my choir; I realize how much I’m going to miss it all.
& yeah I’ll still be able to keep in contact with everyone here but theres something about long distance relationships that just suck.. even if you’re the best of friends.
I love my friends so much & the thought of leaving them hurts me so deeply.
But even through all of this, I can be comforted. The maker of my heart comforts me and whispers to me that it’s going to be alright; that it will all work out; that He holds me when I feel scared or alone.
It’s going to be alright.
Even though we’re blindly stepping in faith.
Even though I have no idea how we’ll put it all together.
Even though I don’t know my future.
Even though everything seems like an impossible mountain; it’s really just an anthill with Him.
It all comes back to trusting Him & giving Him control.
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” ~Psalm 34:18~
“The Lord is my strength and my shield;my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him. The Lord is the strength of his people, a fortress of salvation for his anointed one.” ~Psalm 28:7-8~
Tatiana Blackburn 