It’s not that you haven’t worshipped for the past nine months, you have, it’s just been different. Something was missing.
And then it starts and you realizing what you’ve been missing.
Your knees go weak and you try not to cry cause if you start, people will ask why and you want to keep this moment between you and Jesus.
You realize it’s not that you weren’t worshipping, but that it is a lot harder to worship in a language that you’re not fluent it.
You see, when you worship in a different language, it doesn’t come as natural because not only are you trying to pronounce the words properly, you’re also silently trying to figure out what the song is saying and sometimes you just don’t know. So you still sing, but not whole heartedly because how can you when you don’t know what you’re singing?
And so you’re in this moment, you can’t really believe it’s happening, you fully understand every word and you are so filled with joy you could start dancing around the whole room.
You sing with a huge smile on your face, as loud as you can, finally getting to worship your first love in your first language and you don’t think it could get any better.
And then they play your favorite song.
And you exclaim (accidentally) out loud that this is your favorite song.
And the words float through the air,
“You’re the Lion of Judah, the Lamb who was slain…”
And you stand, but you really want to drop to your knees because the sheer weight of God’s goodness is just too much.
And you think to yourself that you always want to feel like this, so filled with joy and humbleness and awe for this man who loves you unconditionally and without limits and who blesses you in the most unexpected ways.