I am insecure.

Very insecure.

I am insecure about my weight, the way I look, the way I talk, the way I act, what I say, what I laugh at, pretty much everything you could possibly think of.

Sometimes I think I’m the only one;

the only one who isn’t comfortable in tight clothes in fear of people seeing her “fat”

the only one who feels she has to cross her arms across her belly so that people aren’t “grossed out”

the only one who compares her self

the only one who is so self conscious that it’s hard to go out sometimes

the only one who feels she should be silent or be someone she isn’t so that she doesn’t get judged

the only one who sometimes thinks that God made a mistake on her

the only one who feels she has to live up to this ridiculous standard the world has set for us & if she’s anything less than that she’s not worth much.

Its when I take a step back & stop thinking just about me when I realize I’m not the only one.

We have all been caught in this lie that we’re not worth anything if we don’t have the “perfect body” or if we can’t fit into a size zero.

The world wants us to be these cookie cutter princesses where we have to look a certain way or we’re not right, we need to be “fixed” because of a certain number on a scale.

The truth is; when we die, we’re not gonna be remembered for the number on the scale. When we get to heaven Jesus isn’t gonna say “please step on this scale.”

Because in the scheme of eternity, its not about that.

I struggle with this everyday. When I’m getting dressed for the day I struggle through looking in the mirror and seeing my “messed up” body. I struggle with the devil telling me I don’t look right & I need to look better & I would look better if I lost a few pounds. I struggle with him telling me not to eat because it will make me “fat”.

This is when I need to run to God, because this is when he tells me that I am HIS DAUGHTER and how he never makes mistakes. The way I am is the way He wanted me, so why would I want to change His wonderful creation? Why would I want to change His image?

He loves us as we are. He accepts us & loves us. He thinks we’re beautiful. He wants us.

And that is enough for me.

My prayer for you is that you don’t fall into this, that you see your worth & your beauty, that you would see yourself through His eyes.

You are beautiful.

You are worth more than you know.

You are loved.

You are wanted.

You are accepted.

He loves you. He’s waiting with open arms for you to run to Him.

Seek Him & He will show you His unfailing love.

Don’t hesitate to contact me if you’d like to talk, vent, ask questions, whatever 🙂

dosomething316@gmail.com